Back in the Saddle Again

Transferring my old posts to this site has brought home how very much my attitude and outlook on life have changed in the last five years — and not for the better, I fear. My cheerful enthusiasm for filmmaking and casual disregard of what I needed to do to keep my job and my family together has been replaced by an ever-present dread of job loss and fear of interacting with people.

Some of this is good. I’ve re-learned thrift, a concept I’d mastered as an undergraduate, but misplaced somewhere. I’ve learned not to take relationships for granted, and a great deal about how to get along with folks. Nonetheless, much of my life right now is dominated by fear of people and of financial insecurity.

I really need to get to more recovery meetings.

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